Growing up?maturing?

July 11th,Saturday,2009- The night is starry and i am still wide awake. What kept me awake?i wondered usually i dont suffer periods of sleep deprive but today the night just doesn't seems to have the effect on me like they used to be. My mind was running with images and reflects the future of wat i might become. The thought of growing up just suddenly struck me. I thought to myself: Darn, the clock is really ticking on me. I gotta do something,achieve something out of my life.But what might be my catch?the question struck me like a bolt of thunder and left me dumbfounded. I am really clueless. What might be my calling i still have no answer to that. I often wondered do great man or women knew they were going to achieve their legacy from the beginning?like it was predestined for them to achieve noble deeds and create an admirable history?Why am i brought this world?living in the kind of environment i am?and why others are born in this world living a different kind of environment?is it fixed that u are born to be poor or rich,healthy or sick,living in a peaceful country or living in a war country?Growing up certainly means a lot of learning the way of life, i had wat i had today that maybe someone doesn't have maybe it is just easier if i be happy of my current condition and excel in life just like the rest but with the convinction of helping others that might spice up my life a little. The world needs more caring then i care for myself. The world needed a balance not just materially but also spiritually to decrease the incremental effect of destruction upon humanism. Hierarchys cannot be diminished but human socialism certainly will put a stop to the abominable actions done towards our own humankind. I want to be able to live a life to see this world become a better place maybe that's my goal for now.Let humanism prevail!