Just mere coincidence to be single???

2/1/2010,Saturday- A new year has begun and today somehow i cannot manage to sleep well. My mind was at the streets when earlier today, the images of couples lovey dovey around kept playing in my head. I started to reflect back, "damn,i realize everytime when there is an occasion like new year, christmas and etc i was always single damn i must be jinx"haha. Anyway i told myself that i cannot afford to be involve in a relationship yet, because experience tells me that i am not ready, most of my relationship ended ok but i knew the problem was on myself ; long term relationship never worked out for me. Unless, the girl is willing to bet on me but that would be a rare occasion. I learned to go through and i found out actually i am able to cope the single life. I have a lot of doubts on myself mainly financially i just dont know why but it is within my nature to feel that if i got the ability to provide and give the girl something, it makes me feel more confident. Ideally, i wanted to be the person to be rely on. Lastly, i think my new year resolution is to try to be allocentric and less egocentric. Keep the engine running YEAH!!!